FTMFF!!!
(That means ‘For the mother fucking fail!!!’)
ITT we shall discuss how much my skillz are the FAIL!
Pong. Pong is most probably as ubiquitous as the Hello World program. Everyone knows of/has played Pong. It is a quintessential piece of history that any game developer needs to know of.
Which makes the fact that I can’t even create a clone of the bastard more harder to swallow. This, coupled with the need for me to actually pull my finger out and revise for my resit on Thursday, is making me a very upset little bunny.
Very upset.
There is so much fail in my programming skill at the moment, it is completely ludicrous. It is as if my whole being is saying “Do Not Want” whenever I try to express an idea as even 1 single line of code.
I have an amazing feeling of déjà vu from the Easter time period. Except this time it’s a little worse than what it was then. This is the whole “your degree rests on the fact that you need to pass this exam” thing. But it’s as if I’m subconsciously sabotaging the my chance to pass this year, in much the same way I was subconsciously sabotaging the chance for me to go to America for my year abroad.
desu desu desu desu desu desu desu desu desu
I need to get away from Leeds for a while, but unfortunately I’m in a little bit of a pickle in as much as I have nowhere I could go. Home (Rochdale) is not an option, unless I wanted to go fully insane, most of the people I know are in Leeds at the moment, I haven’t got that much money so a jaunt abroad is pretty much ruled out.
FOR THE FUCKING LOSE!!!!
Goddamn it. I so need to vent. Cos it bodes ill. It bodes very ill.
The last time I was like this, was after my first girlfriend dumped me and got with the barman who worked at the pub I was living at. I played the whole “keep cool and let it pass” thing, like now, but I lacked the experience to deal with it. Seems said experiences aren’t easily obtained.
AM I SUCH A BAD PERSON FOR THIS TO HAPPEN TO ME TWICE????
It seems that history repeats itself all the time.
That fucks me off…
This is getting way too much for me to deal with.
Karma will sort everything out.
(And for those who are interested Sarah [the first gf] is still with Tim [the barman]. Which, again, bodes very ill for my faith in Karma.)
The decision has been made, and I’m going to have to stick to my convictions and see it through.
It has to happen. It’s for the best.
Edit: And now it has happened. We shall see if how much better it gets.
August 15th, 2007 at 12:20 pm
You know you are welcome to come stay on Jersey for a bit if you need to escape, although I realise this is possibly a bit of a late offer, and possibly no cheaper than going abraod, but if you want to, you are always welcome.